All over the place

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. Just everything really. The summer, music, family, birthdays, prime time, autism, college, dreams, reverb, missions trips, wishes, the future, friends, poetry.

Jason Mraz is not just a singer, he is an artist. Artists aren't just the ones with paint brushes in their hands and charcoal smudges on the arms. They're the ones that aren't afraid to pour their souls out into a single thing. Whether it be a painting, drawing, song, dance, poem, story, monologue or sculpture. What their heart is telling them, it's on that piece of paper, on that musical staff, on that word document, on that stage, on that sidewalk. They're the boldest things God has created.

I don't know what to say when people ask me what college I want to go to. I don't want to go to college. But the look of disappointment you get when telling people that is enough to make you want to cry in your room for a week. It's even harder when you tell them the reason why and they don't approve of it. I want to be a missionary.

I'm flying solo next year. Just me and my parents.

I honestly think I have some form of Autism. I keep remembering things I had no idea I even knew. It would explain how I am like a human juke box. The Versailles Palace in France has 620 fountain nozzles in the garden. I'm dead serious.

Too many people are changing.

My brain is going crazy. This is all over the place. I need a breather.

Make it reality.

One day, 5 years ago, my sister finally convinced herself to try out for the middle school drama. She was in 8th grade and had landed a role in The Remarkable Incident At Carson Corners. After that show, she knew that that was what she wanted to do for the rest of her life. Her dream was to go to NYU for acting. She wanted to be an actress. She's now a senior in highschool, has been in 12 other plays and got her acceptance letter today.

Starting this fall, my sister's dreams become reality. She'll be living her dream. And nothing's going to stop her.

Good days.

16 things made my day great.

1) I woke up and didn't feel tired at all.
2) I had a bagel and homefries for breakfast which were delicious.
3) I went to church with Jack and Kayla.
4) I discussed my vegetarian ways with Jack, talked with Supah, ghetto texted Kayla and drank half of a mocha.
5) I passed by Luke Fain walking/riding his bike on the side of the road.
6) I met Kayla's cousin James who is one of the cutest, if not the cutest, 3 year olds on the planet.
7) I went to Katherine's house and hung out with Kayla, Kelly, Shmay, Alex, James, Johnny and little Jack. We ate pizza, drank snapple and played Rock 'em Sock 'em Robots.
8) Then, we all went to the park, minus little Jack and Johnny. There we went on the wooden playground, the little kid playground and then attempted to play tennis.
9) We dropped James back off at Kayla's house so he could go home and I witnessed Kelly get tackled by him, which was absolutely one of the funniest things I've ever seen before.
10) Kayla, Kelly, Katherine and I went to Beacon Hill to help with the EGG-stravaganza.
11) We drew with chalk, sang, helped little kids do crafts, helped with the lesson and then ate some food on the picnik tables.
12) Shmay, Kelly, Kayla, Katherine and I went to 5 Guys and thoroughly embarassed Alex while he was working and then ate some fries.
13) Then us 5 went to Hanna Cranna's grave, drove down Dracula Drive twice and then went to Kayla's house and tried to have an intense conversation, which only resulted in silence.
14) My mom picked up me and Katherine and we dropped her off. I came home and tried to do my homework.
15) Katherine, Steve, Ms. Cantillo and I went to Baskin for ice cream, went down Dracula drive again, went to Hanna Cranna's grave and then spent the rest of the car ride to my house scaring the living daylights out of Ms. Cantillo.
16) I am getting all 500 songs that I lost off my iPod back to my iTunes as we speak.

I think I'll classify today as a win.

Thoughts from the sounds

"Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?"

-Name by The Goo Goo Dolls

I heard this on the radio on the way back from Long Island yesterday. Will someone please unpack this for me? ..I honestly do not understand.

Let's make the world a better place!

Today we were watching The Inconvenient Truth in science class and we were talking about global warming. Our teacher was saying how over all these years people don't care and global warming is getting horrible and that it is up to us to fix it. Then a kid in my class says,

"If it's your generations problem, why do we have to fix it?"

Why is this the way people think? Just because we didn't cause the problem, doesn't mean we can't fix it. This bothers me. It's as if people honestly don't care about helping other people at all. When they should. People should strive to help others. I literally cringed when I heard these words come out of that kids mouth. How about we help others. Our planets lack of compassion towards others seems like a far more bigger problem than global warming..just saying.

Somethings really annoy me..

like when two people really shouldn't be flirting, but are anyways. Or when my mom asks me to put my seat belt on, when it already is. Or when I really want to watch a TV show or something and am too distracted by the actions of the people in the room. Or when people invite themselves over your house or ask to see your room. Or when I leave essays to be written the night before they are due. Or when people make comments at the movie theater to the people in the movie. Or when people stare at me when I'm not doing anything. Or when my friends keep secrets from me. Or when people who have a boyfriend/girlfriend flirt with people a lot younger than them. Or formspring. Or when the storm door opens the opposite way of the other door. Or when I put 2 socks in the dryer and can only find 1 when they are finished. Or when my parents forget to make dinner. Or when seeing people do things makes me sick.

But hey, I guess we just have to roll with the punches..

Shake The Dust by Anis Mojgani

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qDtHdloK44

To everyone and everything out there, don't let any thing stop you, speak your thoughts, stand up for what you believe in and never become so lifeless that you gather dust. To those who this message is too late for, shake the dust.

"Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes." - Maggie Kuhn

Let It Roll..

"I know I'll never die alone because of all of you.."-All Time Low

My friend and I were discussing music today, 8th period. He was singing me a song, and he said this lyric. This lyric in a song I've heard over 20 times. This lyric that I've heard so many times, but never thought of. This lyric that makes me happy. This lyric that sends my thoughts wizzing. This lyric that puts a smile on my face and puts other peoples smiles in my head. These smiles:

Fan pages and groups.

All these pages people are 'becoming a fan of' on facebook and all these groups they are joining are really starting to annoy me. They get me in such a bad mood after reading them. I just saw one, "'You're beautiful' is the best compliment a girl can get." Uhm.. can we speak for ourselves and not throw the entire population of XX chromosomes under the bus, because not all of us are that shallow. There are so many groups like "I hate certain people the minutes I see them." Like, why? Why do you do that? Sure, maybe you feel that way, but even so, why would you make that public? I just don't understand people some times.